Shame on me

Since I was chastized for not updating I thought I should put down a little note. On the bad side, I gained 1.4 last week. I've been eating like a moron and have not been exercising like I should (aside from working my arms playing the drums on Guitar Hero). If I sould like I just don't care it's because I don't. I have much bigger fish to fry right now so my weight-loss motivation has slipped considerably.
But I do have a small piece of good news. I did my 5k in under 42 min. the other day, shaving off a full min. from my previous time. I almost puked, literally, when I got off the treadmill but it was totally worth it.
This week hasn't been going much better except that I think I'm getting sick and not really feeling like eating much which is cool. No food+lots o' liquid=no gain this week. So we'll see what happens.
Peace out yo.

Do these make my butt look big?

Went shopping today at Old Navy. I was looking at their spring dresses. They looked like crap on me, which was sad. However, in the clearance section I found a pair of jeans that were cheap and cute. The scary part was that they were a size and section smaller than what I have now. Section meaning they are a woman's size not a woman's plus so they are less roomie. Figured it couldn't hurt to try them on and what do you know, they actually fit! They're a little snug but new jeans are, and they aren't uncomfortable. SWEET! Also got a cute sweater to wear over a tank (thanks for the find Donna). I'm going to be rockin' the cuteness in this ensemble!

It's a big day sports fans

I had no clue what to expect when I went to WW today. That usually means I'll gain because, well that's what big girls do. So imagine my shock when I stepped on the scale and found that I not only didn't gain, but I lost...4 flippin' pounds. WTF? I have now not only reached, but exceeded my 5% goal so now I just have to keep it up and I'll be down my 10% soon!

Here's hopin'

So this week has been pretty crap so far. I'm hoping that emotional turmoil burns more calories so at least I get something (i.e. weight loss) for the trouble. That's pretty much it for now, oh except that I'm doing a 5 k this weekend. Hope it doesn't rain!

Woo-Hoo I'm down 2!

All the @ss kicking by Jillian must have worked, I burned off 2 lbs this week. You know what that means? I hit my 10 lb. mark, 10.4 to be exact. I'm feelin' lean and mean today!! Now, if only I can do it again next week I'll be down to my 5% goal!

How far will I go? Pretty darn far.

I went to give blood today. Instead of the 11th hour workout I thought I'd just bleed a little to see the scale go down tomorrow. That's dedication right there. Unfortunately I have low iron and today it happened to be too low so they booted me out. And in honor of my failure I wrote this little song:

(Sung to the tune of "Beauty School Dropout" from Grease)
Blood donor dropout
no juice and cookies for you
Blood donor dropout
won't take a drop or even two
I answered all the questionier
and they gave my finger a prick
spun my blood around and then I found
no dice, you are anemic!

Blood donor dropout
no big needle stick today
Blood donor dropout
won't even let me if I pay
I've rolled up my sleeve
don't make me leave
I even think I cried!
The nurse just gave a smile
and a sticker that said "I Tried".

I must be a fast learner

So after the first day of Jillian trying to kill me I was actually better. In fact, the second day wasn't too bad. Don't get me wrong, I was dog tired and thirsty, but not once did I feel like I was going to keel over. I took a break on Sunday. Washed the cars and did some walking, but nothing serious. Today was the gym. I did push-ups a little easier than before, so that was a plus. And I just know under all the pooch is a 6 pack waiting to be revealed because I have to do that "advanced" ab moves before I feel a thing. And to add to the happiness I'm expecting a good surprise when I weigh in on Wednesday. Stay tuned.

I think I'm going to pass out

I just finished level 1 of Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. I almost passed out, twice. But I finished it, all 20 min. I haven't done jumping jacks in years but she uses lots of them, and they are awful. However, I bet I burned a lot of calories so I feel good that I got some serious exercise in today. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow and see what happens!

Keep on Keepin' on

The results are in, my body is in love with it's fat. The scale at WW said I was down another .6 lb. So at this rate I ought to reach my goal weight in about 180 weeks (that's about 3 1/2 years for those keeping score at home). Now, I know slow weight loss is really the best because it's better for your body, but honestly this is a little silly. In all honesty though, while I didn't "cheat" last week I know I didn't do my best. So I'm redoubling my efforts this week in hopes that I can see at least a whole pound off the scale instead of a fraction.

Wish me luck!

New Tech. to Kill the Pooch

Over the weekend I had a lovely time at Donna's. She let me play Wii, and I love it. I raced in Mario Cart, was a rock god in Guitar Hero: World Tour, got my butt kicked in boxing, and actually did okay on bowling. I LOVE that machine. Today I think I'm going to go buy Dance, Dance Revolution. While I don't have a Wii there are a few things we can get for the Xbox 360 that will burn some calories, while having some fun.
The next item is one my brother sent me. Here's the link http://www.bodybugg.com/index.php
While it's a little too rich for my blood at the moment my hope is that it will come down in price so us "mortals" can get in on the deal sometime soon.
So there's some new ammo for the war against pooch.

If my weight were a plateau it would be the whole midwest.

I lost a whopping .6 lb. so now I'm at a grand total of 8 in 7 weeks. The "bright side" of me says "you ate a little stupid this week but you still lost instead of gained, yay you!" The "dark side" of me says "how much is lipo and a lap band? Better yet, can they just clamp my mouth shut so the only way to get sustenance is through a tube in my nose that can be closely monitored for excess calories?" Seriously, this is getting lame. Not ready to give up though, I'm too pissed to give up.

The Saga Continues

I forgot to post last Wednesday, I think out of frustration. According to the WW scales I gained .8 lb. WHAT THE HECK? All that water, all the exercise, all the fiber and low-fat healthy eating and I GAINED!
I talked with my hypnotherapist about it and she suggested maybe working within the WW program a bit differently. The last time I was on a diet it was based on more protien. I have noticed with this particular method of weight loss the focus is on fiber and foods high in water content. So I may switch things up a bit and see what happens.
In the mean time I sort of bombed a bit over the weekend. Not bombed in the sense that I ate 100 points worth of food per day but I used up most of my "bonus" points. The positive thing was that I still managed to stay mostly under control. I didn't just throw caution to the wind and binge on crap, and Sean noticed how careful I was being and was proud of me so that was encouraging.
I guess we'll just see what happens this week...

Munch, munch, munch

Happy Monday! I know, it's an oxymoron.
This weekend was a little rough in Pooch-land. I had really bad munchies on Sunday. I attribute it to a large amount of hormones in my system, but it's still no excuse. I am happy to report though that I didn't go over my "points" for the day, and I even managed to make myself do a little Yoga on Sunday. So all in all I did well, but it took a lot of effort.
And for my effort I bought myself a fun little book called "The Girl's Book of Glamour: A Guide to Being a Goddess". It has all sorts of beauty remedies and ideas, should be fun to read. And it's pink. So I think this weekend was a success, even if it doesn't really feel like one.

Salsa anyone?

Went to the gym last night to do some "Latin Imact Aerobics", which is pretty much a latin dance class. I was watching the class from my tredmill last week and thought "I can move my bootie like that, I'm so going to that class next week". So Tawnya and I headed in, ready to dance. The 1st 15 min. were great, blood pumping, latin music bumping, and bootie shakin' good times. The next 15 min. were getting a bit tougher so I was glad for a little break. I came back from my drink of water break and the next song was just pointless. No matter how I tried to move my limbs just flopped around. I looked like a fish out of water. Not to mention I was overdoing it so my face looked like a tomato. Yes, I was quite a sight. So 35 min. in I was done. However, I'm not DONE, maybe next time I'll make it 40 min!
Viva la bootie shaking!

Greetings fellow bloggers

First, I must apologize to all veteran bloggers. I am a bit behind in this whole realm and are therefore not very versed in blog etiquette and such. So if I do something lame, kindly let me know.

Since the main focus of this blog is to talk about my journey of weight loss I will start there. I have been heavy all of my life. I wasn't a huge kid, but I was never tiny, and as I grew I grew out as much as up. High school got worse, and by the time I was an "adult" (at the ripe old age of 18) I believe I was hovering around a size 22. There were 2 times I lost weight. Once when I live and worked with friend over a summer and that was because we couldn't afford food AND rent so I just couldn't eat. The second time was when I went on a very strict, somewhat complex, diet that worked but was completely unpractical to keep using through my life. I had lost 80 lbs. at that point but eventually gained most of it back by the time I was through with college. So here I am, as of today, at 234.8 lbs. I've been on Weight Watchers for 5 weeks and am down 8 lbs. Honestly, I was hoping to be a little farther along at this point but I'm not going to let that discourage me. I am already learning a lot more about food, but also a lot more about myself. Like, why I eat things, and when I'm actually hungry verses when my stomach feels "empty" but it's really not. The other day I ate more than I should have and felt too full, and it bothered me. I haven't ever really paid attention to "too full" until now. But in the last 5 weeks I've been eating until I'm done, not until I'm stuffed.

I will also add at this point that I'm doing hypnotherapy along with the WW program. So far I have good things to say about that as well. I have noticed some changes in behavior and changes in my way of thinking. I go for my next session next week and I'm looking forward to it.

I will close with one of the goals I have for my weight loss. I have included a photo of a dress I will soon wear and look smokin' hot in.